Money

How many out there are tired of being money poor? I don't know poor as in having no place to live or food on your table or clothes to wear. 

I would never ever change where we are.  I would never ever say that having my son back was a hardship.  I would do everything all over again to keep him here with us.  But having no money to do anything I would like to do is hard.  This may sound selfish but once in a while I want to go get a massage, or take a vacation or go shopping without having to just 'window' shop because there just is no money.  I want to be able to do some of the gardening and home improvements just like everyone else.  I would love to be able a the drop of a dime take off for the weekend.  I want to give to my kids some of the extras they would like to have.

Go back to work you say.  Well some days I want to do just that.  But, again that god almighty dollar is the reason I don't go back to work.  Well in order to do that I would have to find a job that pays almost 5 times what I was making before we had children.  That would be to cover childcare, clothes, car things and also income tax.. But my career field doesn't pay that way (high).  So here I sit getting resentful.......what's up with that.

I should be grateful for what God has provided for me and I am.  But, my sinful nature...the human part of me would like to be able to do more...