Trials

How do you go from one day to the next and not really know where you are going?  Why doesn't life come with a manual?  Well it does come with a manual but living up to that manual is not easy at all.

God said life would  never be easy but He would be there.  My life so far the past 7 months have been a living testament to life not being easy. 

First of all almost losing my son.  What can you say to that.  He was never really mine and is not really mine.  He is God's son right? But when Robert ended up with a ruptured AVM on New Years Day 2013 my life came crashing to a halt.  I may have been more scared at that moment then I have ever been; there was still a piece of me...a LARGE piece of me that knew God had him.  God was going to protect him and keep him safe.  Even though the human part of me was scared to death of losing him the spiritual part of me knew that even if that was the case God was with me through it all.  Long story short God saved my son and today he is almost back to the boy he was on December 31, 2012. 

Life since that has just been a little crazy.  Juggling the rehabs and therapies for Robert, school for all the kids, Caleb and Sarah seeking for mommy's attention even if that attention is negative attention breaks my heart.  I try to do the best I can.  Have always tried to do the best I could through this all.  I am told all the time how resilient kids are and that they will bounce back and get through this.  That I did do the best I could and what a living testament to what a true Christian is like and the faith one has.