Ok so the life lesson at our church right now is titled Doubt...doubt about all things: does God really exist, God's will for our lives, and any other doubts you have regarding God and his relationship with us on a community level as well as a personaly level.

This week we talked about Jonah and God's plan for his life and for our lives. The question was posed what is our Nineveh? Meaning what is God calling us to do that we think we either shouldn't, can't or won't do for whatever reasons those are? What are we afraid will happen if we just live in God's grace and will/plan for our lives? Are we afraid of giving complete control over to someone we can't see? Are we afraid of trusting someone so completely that what we do even when we do something matters not? Those are frightful things but God is so much bigger then that. Look outside one night and just lay there what do you see? The night time sky littered with stars and planets. Did God create that? In Genesis its states that God created all earth, sky, moon, sun, stars etc... now if God can create that such beautiful yet unknown to it's fullest what's to say His plans for our lives can't be as beautiful and full of unknown for us.

We will always have doubts and wondering hearts but the bottom line is God says who He is in plain terms I AM. He will be there no matter what is going on in your life and the knowledge that He is behind this life and this plan is comforting to know.

Well it's official I know I shouldn't be getting on the scale here at home but I just couldn't help it. I have officially (according to our scale anyway) gained back 10 of the 30lbs I lost in the first 3months since my lap band surgery.

I know I shouldn't blame it all on the fact that I haven't been able to have a fill since December because my port got dislodged and flipped over. We are currently STILL waiting for our new insurance to approve the surgery to adjsut the port. I know I have not been following a strict low fat low/no sugar diet. I guess instead of beating myself up over it starting tomorrow it should go back to strict strict strict diet and get back into the gym!!!!!!!!


I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!