OK OK OK so why does what people think and feel about us matter so much.

Why do we strive to make sure our parents like us, our friends like, and even strangers for that matter......The thought of having someone out there mad, upset or dissatisfied with us is terrifying. I want to know why is that? Why can't we just be satisfied with who we are, what we are and what God has made us to be. Even with all our flaws... no one is perfect...we know that in our heads but why does our heart feel that just because we aren't we are flawed.......

Life can take many roads. Long ones, short ones, windding ones, narrow ones, uphill ones, down hill ones but they all seem to lead back to the same place.

So why is making decisions on your life so hard. We are told as Christians that God never promised an easy road but that He would be with us through it all.

I am trying to decide what to do about my relationship with a religious order that I once was sure God was calling me to enter into service with. That is before he placed Richard in my life. I still feel an affinity to them but really no connection. When I left Connecticut to start my new life with Richard, I left behind my old one. I had thought with my connection with the order it would still be there. But as time has gone on I do not get home as often as I had hoped, and when there feel disconnected from all those I came to know and love.

There is a time and a season under heaven they say..... so was this connection only for a season? only for a time? or in my discontent with things in life and my relationship with my King am I possibly throwing away or rather walking away from something I shouldn't????